A Reason to My Busyness

Up until like 2 weeks ago, my life was crazy hectic. I'd be at Falls by 5:30 for swim practice, get home around 3, doing homework till 5, eat a quick dinner and head off to practice, get home at like 8:30, eat again and shower, then do homework till 11 or so. And do it all over again. 5 days a week. Umpteen weeks a year. Over and over again.

Weekends were sometimes worse. Swim meets on Saturdays and Sundays, then church Sunday nights, and they were jammed packed with homework. It was insane.

I complained. A lot. I hated not ever getting to see my friends to just "chill". I longed for one day to sleep in, and it never came. Driving to practice which used to be my sanctity began to be spent repeating pre-cal and physics formula's over and over again. I went over AP US History time-lines in the shower. I never had time for anything, and hated it.

Then high school swimming finally ended. The 6-week grading period finally ended. This week I have had so much free time, it's weird. I watched a TV show with my dad and brother (hated it, don't even ask. It scared the wabeejee's outta me!). I got to church early on Wednesday. I watched Kole's opening baseball game (f-f-f-f-f-reeeezing! 40 degree weather just shouldn't be allowed for a baseball game!). I had no homework that had to be done. I had time to play with my puppy (mental note: need to give her a bath before Daddy gets home today so he'll be happy, supposedly she smells like a "dog"... heaven forbid :D), I got to just breathe.

And as much as I loved that for like 2 days, I'd do anything to get a somewhat busy life back. I hate the time that I have now to let my mind wander. I spend too much time thinking about Clay, Devin and Layla. I feel so helpless. I think about a good friend of mine who was in a car accident this week. I hate being able to think.

Throughout the busyness of my typical daily routine, I didn't have time to think about what was wrong. My mind had no time to just "wander". Pre-cal, physics, English and History AP kinda consumed any time I had when I wasn't swimming.

I need my busyness back. I need to keep moving. I need to do something. I'm involved in Relay For Life at Cy-Falls trying to get a group of students together to go fight for cancer. I can't participate in the event itself because of a church commitment, but it means a lot to me now with everything happening. I had kinda pooped-out the past week ago with everything else going on and majorly slacked off. No more of that. It's on. Cy-Falls will be there on April 23-24.

This weekend is going to be a busy one (thankfully!). KJ needs a bath pronto, Kole has a baseball game tonight. Tomorrow morning/afternoon I'm volunteering at a little kid swim meet. Saturday night Kole has day 2 of his baseball tourney. Sunday morning will either be a swim meet or Kole's tourney, depending on what time he plays at. And church Sunday afternoon/night. SO glad I'm going to be busy!!