No Wonder...

When I got home from a church retreat today, I was in the BEST of spirits until I found out that a good family friend is in the hospital. I thought to myself "really God? Again? You're throwing another hurricane at my family AGAIN?"

February 27th- I was apart of a fundraiser at my church to raise money for our summer mission trips. We walked 7.75 miles, and I left the event in wonder of how many awesome things God is going to do with these summer mission trips. I got home to find my gramma had been given 24 hours to live. I was crushed and devastated.

March 4th- Carley and I had a spectacular time at a Hillsong concert. We sang and danced our hearts out, and my faith was on fire! It was amazing. I came home to find out my gramma had gone and met Jesus.

April 10-I spent the day at camp working "Family Fun Day", a day where families were able to come and see and experience camp. Praise and worship that morning was amazing, and kick-started my day into the perfect place. I worked on top of the blob dock, and was able to pray for several kids who were utterly terrified to jump off the dock and trust the zip line to support them into the water. Once again, amazing boost to my faith. I got home to find out my other grandmother was in the hospital.

Do you see a trend here? Everytime I come home to bad news, the day had provided an amazing spiritual boost, a "faith on fire", "top of the roller-coaster" experience. For a split second today I felt broken, WHY must bad things keep ruining the wonderful and uplifting days that God has placed in my life? But I instantly realized something - God has given me those days to allow my faith to grow, to allow myself to feel secure again spiritually in order to prepare me for the hurricane that has stood before me so many times this year. At times, I felt like my faith was skimming the bottom of the "well of faith" until that day where I was able to get the faith-slap I needed to refocus myself. Without those, who knows what these past months would've looked like. They've been a struggle to say the least. But without God, and those opportunities the hours before my life was seemingly turned upside down, I don't know how I would've gotten through it. Another storm stands before us, and the next hurricane may be around the corner, but God knows how it all needs to work out... No wonder... He IS God after all!