One Month... really?

On March 3rd I was so excited for the next day. March 4th, the day Carley and I had been counting down for weeks. It was the day that she would drive up from League City and spend the afternoon in Houston. We'd go out for our typical fajita dinner and then go to Hillsong together. Kristen would meet us afterwards and we would have a wonderful night together, valuing the time that we would get to spend in each other company.

March 4th wasn't how I expected. Yes Carley came up, yes we had fajitas, yes we saw Hillsong. Then my life spun into hurricane mood.

Tomorrow is April 4th, and I honestly don't know what to think. Parts of me are dreading tomorrow as it marks the one month since Gramma met Jesus. Part of me though is also looking forward to it, marking the crucial "we survived one month mark" yes, but something more important. You know how when you are a baby you are always known by how many months old you are? And how one month is kinda special just because you've been around for one whole month? I like to think of Heaven that way too. That as of tomorrow, Gramma would have been in Paradise for one entire month! Dancing with Jesus, chatting with her sister, and challenging everybody to a wicked game of hand and foot. That is something so wonderful!

It's definitely not easy on this side of things, but I take comfort knowing how wonderful it is on her side!

Ms. Douglas told me that I needed to download Steven Curtis Chapman's most recent CD, and so I did. The lyrics are wonderful on every song, and are so true and comforting. My absolute favorite right now is "See", here are the lyrics, I think you'll know why I love it!

"Right now all I can taste are bitter tears
And right now all I can see are clouds of sorrow
But from the other side of all this pain
Is that you I hear, laughing loud and calling out to me?

Saying "See, it's everything you said that it would be,
And even better than you would believe.
And I'm counting down the days until you're here with me,
And finally, you'll see."

But right now, all I can say is "Lord, how long
Before you come and take away this aching?"
This night of weeping seems to have no end.
But when the morning light breaks through,
We'll open up our eyes and we will see

It's everything that He said that it would be
And even better than we would believe

And he's counting down the days 'til He says "Come with me."
And finally he'll wipe every tear from our eyes
And make everything new, just like he promised
Wait and see, just wait and see, wait and see

And I'm counting down the days until I see
It's everything He said that it would be
And even better than we would believe
And I'm counting down the days 'til He says, "Come with me."
And finally, we'll see. We will see.

Oh taste and see that the Lord is good, the Lord is good
The Lord is good. Oh taste and see that the Lord is good
The Lord is good. "

We'll see how tomorrow goes... I have planned out nearly every second of my days for this entire week, so hopefully staying busy will provide for an easier week. But regardless, God is with us and we will all make it through!!