Uh-Oh.. I'm Turning Into My Mother (Real blog is acutally about Layla Grace; the fact that it's super late and I can't sleep makes me like my mother)

Ever since I was little I remember Mom always waking up way super early, like 3 AM, saying she "couldn't sleep" and worked on work-stuff. I always thought she was CRAZY! How could you not sleep? You have "things on your mind"?

Yeah, well, I'm kicking myself in the butt now for ever thinkin' that.

Layla Grace has been on my mind. The news isn't looking too good right now, had a rough few days. And not only that, it seems like more people know about her, more people ask how she's doing. I love the fact that I'm able to spread the word and get more people praying for this little Angel, but talking about it is so hard. Reading the blog is so hard. Telling Renee and Amber that it will be okay and that our God has a plan regardless, for not only little Layla but for us too, is hard.

A simple facebook status from my best friend earlier sent me over the edge in tears. "Dear sweet layla grace. I pray that you have peace in where ever God takes you. I pray that he gives your parents, and family, the strength they need. ♥" It's a good thing Daddy was asleep, Kole was in bed, and Mom wasn't home. I sat and bawled. My pre-cal homework has a water-spot on it. (Good thing Hallmark won't pick it up). I texted Renee and just knew she was sitting in her bed doin the same exact thing.

I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to pick up the pencil and keep working pre-cal. Didn't know how to put together the physics packet for that test tomorrow. All I could do was cry for precious Layla.

Eventually I got over myself, realizing sobbing wasn't doing any good. The fact is Layla has changed my life. She has, no if's and's or butt's about it. I can't remember the last time I prayed so hard for something. As Mrs. Shanna said "it's not hard to believe that Layla's work here is done, she's changed so many hearts". She's changed my attitude, and my life. Now I'm going out to do the same for others, one day.

These past few weeks, Layla's all I can think about. In physics-when Matt and I check her blog everyday to see if anything's updated. In APUSH-when I look through all her pictures once more, and find myself tearing up. At home-when I don't think there's ever a time when her webpage isn't in the tab next to the window I'm working in. At the pool-when Renee and I kick and talk about how precious she is. At church-when everybody asks how she's doing. And everytime my phone buzzes, hoping it's a positive update from Mrs. Shanna and Mr. Ryan.

Therefore, I guess it's no surprise how she's been on my mind all night. I turned out the lights to go to bed and laid there, tearing up again as I prayed for God to heal her. I turned the lights back on, read my AP Test Study guide for APUSH for our test on Wednesday. I copied pictures of how a rainbow is formed for bonus points for physics. I listened to KSBJ, and heard the lyrics. I checked up on my friends, knowing Renee and Amber are in the same boat I'm in.

Layla's changing lives. She's changed mine. She's changed the 56,293 members of her facebook group. She's brought me closer to my friends, closer to our God, closer to my family. I know I'm not the only one. My aunt hugs her daughter tighter, I take the extra 2 seconds to give my brother a hug before heading out. Layla Grace, you're changing lives.

15 minutes after starting this post, I'm no where near ready for bed. Maybe I'll start one of my Spring Break books (no, that'll be bad. Then I won't EVER go to bed), or study some more for physics, apush, and pre-cal. Or read those stupid current events for English. Maybe I'll sit in bed, thanking God for what He has given me, and continue to think about precious Layla Grace. That's probably what'll happen. Just like normal.

PS: You know how I just said 56,293 were members of the "Praying for Layla Grace" facebook group? Yeah? Well I just re-checked. 4 minutes later and the number has jumped to 56,320. Unbelievable.

Layla Grace, you're awesome! Truly something special, can't wait to meet you one day :)

56,324 members.

56,329 members.

Layla's Facebook Page: see for yourself how the numbers are jumping
Layla's Blog

I had messed up the HTML for the links, so came back to edit. Facebook group: 56,342 members. Layla Grace, you're unbelievable.